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hay. LJ.

dont have enaf time to update my LJ. i miss the people here. LJ people. awwwwoooooo.. asan na kayo? ela? hahaha.. mishu all!! waaahh.. i'm dead nervous. june 13 is fast approaching. mixed emotions. what will it look like? how does it feel to be a college student? (at last!)

ano bang gngwa pag first day? waahh. surprise ba ito. haha.

good thing. may kasabay na ako on my way to school and on my way home. haha!! 

Goodluck saken. sateng lahat.

musta na kayo LJ people? haha.

God bless us!!

i just love my life even though i am missing a lot of people. 

on june 4, punta ako sa alma mater ko nung hayskul. haha! namis ko kaagad e.

miss ko na magGIG!!!

life..

life is so beautiful. it's been a long time since i last posted here. i miss my LJ. so much.. hay. nway, i'll be posting actively here again. wla lng. medyo nging busy lng for many matters. i havent posted here yet my prom pictures and grad moment.. soon nlng. hay. miss y'all LJ friends!!

God bless!!

belated happy birthday pau!! hayne and masaichi!! miss y'all too!!

-becca

lonely nights...

napapost na ulet ako. ang dami ko na kseng namimis. di ko kaya. backdated nlng ung post ko bout sa prom. wla lng, 4th year high school students of DOST are not so busy. puro practice ng graduation. aylabet! 

 am currently oganizing an event together wid my bandmates jheric, dominic nd genelle. battle of the bands 2007 exclusive for DOST students. na-excite ako nung saturday kse akala ko papayag tumugtog ang publico. well, pumayag na sila pero nalungkot ako se may personal na lakad c kuya lui. pero ok lng, ndepress lng ako ng sobra. mis na mis ko na tlga clang lahat~ i cried so hard that night.. next time.. there's always a next time for everything. SANA. naexcite dn pa nman ako sa parañaque gig nla pero twas cancelled. huhuhuh.. bad news sakeng desperadong makita at mapanood cla magpeerform. klan ko kaya ulet cla mapapanood? mis na mis na mis na mis na mis na mis ko na tlga keo ng sobra..

that night, i watched their videos... BASO, samanatala, malayo.. paulit-ulit.. to the point na hndi ako ntulog.. headache baby! huhuhuhu. hndi nga ako makakasama sa EK e.. pero pipilitin ko. pde pa kaya akong humabol?sa ek ko nlng sla i-meet? ang gulo ng isip ko kse bka hndi ako payagan ni papa kse that time, we're already preparing for our bicol trip. :(( nagpaprint pa ako yesterday ng publico pictures.. namimis ko na tlga cla..

bad news:: my bestfriend nung grade 4 ata ako nun, childhood friend got pregnant. balita ko nga, she already delivered her baby.. tsktsk..tskk. howw sad. how about her future?? ano ba nman yan oh!! hate it coz the last time i saw her, she's in good condition. she's fine. we hugged each other pa nga e.. kse, 3 years ata keng hndi nagkita coz we transferred to a new village. hannah, a childhood friend also, went to canada with her family for good. i'll miss you.. so so much..

sorry kla myka, bsta sa group of friends ko since first year. i've been very busy.. di ko na cla nkakabonding. lapit na grad.. knna, medyo nasaktan ako sa sinabi ni myka (truth hurts) na puro nlng ako banda.. studio. araw-araw na studio. khit pagod studio prin, puro nlng bandmates ko ung ksma ko. sorry guys, if you guys only knew, i'm exerting effort on this event because i want us to hav a bonding. bonding wherein all the students of DOST bldg are involve. bawi ako after nung event, ayy.. grad na pla un. di rin ata ako mkakasama sa lakad after grad. huhuhuhu.. pero mis ko na keo sobra.. sobra tlga..

fun. fun. fun. sad. sad. sad.

yesterday, i'm wid my bandmates. we had a rehearsal for our performanc sa prom. of course, with our friends na may band din. eto kame oh. i arrived cguro mga 10pm. we had fun jamming and all.. eating.. laughing. camwhoring and all.

  hala.. may blanko. nwawala ung picture nmin ni paolo. nman oh!! asan na un?!? sori sa mga wla. ang dami nmin tlga. wla aong grup tayo. bawi ako. praktis bukas ah!

eto pa. knna, kanya-kanyang suot kme.. ayus tlga!! eto ako. kme.. at kung cno cno pa.



after physics class, we went to HOLy trinity crematory in parañaque. just had a visit to our classmate, allen harley. so sad. his mom passed away. i hope that his family is okay. i'm praying for the strength for his whole clan. God bless! stay strong harley! :) sorry kung maingay ang buong klase. thanks nga pla.. had drunk lots of coffee! :)

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i really don't want to comment sa life status ko. sobra na. ayoko nrin malungkot all the way. well, tonyt wil be dane's nyt. it's his bday celebration. i can't go. the fact that i'm detained inside my room, i know i really can't go. well, sna s prom , pde cla. rraaawwwrrr.. knna, nung nlaman ko na bka bawal na banda sa prom, gumunaw mundo ko. i mean, i feel the pieces of me are falling apart. i want to see them. that's the only hope na ntitira sken. well, sbi ko sa sarili ko, ayus lng. khit hndi. boycott tlga pag wla [ublico. ayoko nrin pumasok pag hndi cla nkatugtog. paglalaban ko to. hay. hay. well, galit din ako sa mga tao dto sa bahay. parang lhat ng bagay, sinasadyang mangyri e. gnun ung ngiging tingin ko e. alam nlang klngan kong mkaatttend sa celeb ng mga special na tao sken tpos.........................hay. ayoko na. this day will never be a good day for me. tpos, parang di ata nagrereply c kuya dane. ok lng. at least, i extended my greetings to him in all possible ways. also to ate cherry. pti kay kuya james. nbati ko ba sya?!?! hhmmppp.. there's always next in everything, yeah ryt, but when will that next time will happen? after all things are gone? when i feel so dpress nd hopeles, helpless..?? SBi ni paolo, life goes on, what if i don't hav any reason to go on wid my life?

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i really don't want to comment sa life status ko. sobra na. ayoko nrin malungkot all the way. well, tonyt wil be dane's nyt. it's his bday celebration. i can't go. the fact that i'm detained inside my room, i know i really can't go.

crazy.

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kaloka ah. research ba ito?!?! ang hirap nmang hnapin nyang mga yan. :) good luck sa paghahanap! try ko ring humanap.


TPOS::

baliw ako, crush ko tlga si sir espino. baliw lng ako. marami nman kming may crush kay sir espi kse ang galing galing magturo tlga. tahimik ang kanyang pamilya kaya hnggang crush lng kme.. HAHAH!! ung piso nman!


BINGO NA ANG SECTION NMIN!
galit smin tong mga teachers na to/ pti heads...

mrs. sasis
sir er
sir bernal
mam cruz
mam bilon (?!?!?)
sir espino (wag nman!)
mam flores( fnf)
mam libetario( temperance.)
sir deuda( ata)
mam castillo(grabe na!)
mam apple(malapit na bcoz of the newsletters)

yan ang pagkakaalam ko. guys! nagbago na ba tayo o hnd ntin ma-meet ung expectations nila sten?!

khit no classes na kme tomorrow, pupunta prn ako sa school.. we will hav a meeting abpout sa JS promenade! hay. pti ba nman msg?!?!

nga pla,hndi na bkas prom nmin.. MARCH 3 na. sure na. with sofians kme. ok nrin.

sna mkatugtog publico at trauma. haha. please nman. ligawan ko pa pla muna cla.

sori dane. sori. bsta sori. di ko alam kung mkkpunta ako. hndi naman ako kawalan e. :( sori team! sori sa inyong lahat. babawi tlga ako.. alam kong mlungkot ka ngayon, pero pramis, ngayon lng yan. 

OUR prom will be on march 3, heritage hote, pasay, 6pm ata. hay.

anong meron ba pg prom? bkit kanya-kanyang hatak ng partner?!?!




just like ela [info]cinder_ela and belay dorksibelay, i'm also experiencing an emotional agony. gusto ko ng grumad! promise. hndi na ako msaya sa high school life ko and hndi na ata ako mgiging msaya pa. nramdaman ko lng cguro ung high school life in my first 2 years of staying in the dost bldg and after that, hndi ko na na-feel. hay. i feel so depressed today. super. tpos nkakapadepress pa ung school works na npakarami. badtrip tong araw na to!

like what happened awhile ago::
toffer(seatmate ko s left side) made me feel so angry yesterday because of all the things he said. well, firgiven ko na nman sya e, nkaaines lng tlga nung after nmin sumayaw ng ballroom, i was talking to him but he answered me, "nkikita mo ako?" well, sabi ko kse sknya nung ngalit ako, invisible ka na. nagkampi pa kme ni cristy(seatmate ko sa right side). bsta un. nakakaines din kse sa knya nagsimula ung issue ng 1-1 and 1-2. well, nung first year kse kme, parang may gap sa section 1 and 2. well, kme kse lging talo sa contest tpos kme prin laging pinasali sa activities outside school. tpos sabi nya, ang sasama ng ugali ng mga taga 1-1. ouch! 1-1 kaya ako, at marami kmeng 1-1 sa 4-1 ngayon. ngiging seryoso na ung dating sa iba. pero alam ko nmang nagjojoke lng sya e. tpos ntanong ko nlng, dpat ba tlga kmeng mag-away?!?! minsan kse hndi na mgandang joke e. pero peace toffer! cristy and i both love you as our seatmate. hope things wll be good naman cguro as days pass by. :(

then, nung lumapit ako sa kay jp, medyo binibiro ko sya para mcompensate ung burden ko kay toffer knna and binibiro ko sya coz he'll be leaving the phils. na after 4th year high tpos ngulat nlng ako bigla nyang sinabi na "shut up!" ouch db??!?!? tpos c jp pa, na kaclose ko khit papano. expected ko na nman e, kse the last that we had a serious talk, pinaiyak nya ako sa harap ng pc esp nung nging topic c paolo. we both miss paolo na as our friend. jp, thanks for everything! for all the things that you've given me. i know you exerted effort for those things. don't worry it's all well-appreciated.
 
kala ko, mgiging ok ako, pero i was so wrong. paolo approached me just to tell me his story when he strolled the dost bldg with someone. habang nagkkwento sya, bigla ba nmang kinurot ako ng npakalakas.(kalalaking tao!) ang sakit tlga. so i tapped his hand off mine and i walked out. badtrip na nga, lalo pang nging badtrip.
 
i thought they will comfort me but i was wrong.. again.. pumunta ako kla myka and i told them ung "shut up thingy", tpos biglang clang bumanat ng "shut up! shut up!", though it's a joke, hndi ako ntuwa, lalo tuloy akong ndepress. wrong timing magjoke. they apologized and of course, i accepted it.
 
 i ran hurriedly toward cristy and i told her the whole thing. nigla akong naiyak so i ran upstairs. third floor. she followed me and pagdting ko sa third floor, nkita ko c toffer. i saw him crying. medyo ntawa ako nung biglang dumating c cristy khit naiyak ako kse kming magkakatabi e. oh. destiny's game.. hay. watta coincidence.
 
bsta. mhabang kwento at bigla ko nlng nkita c toffer na kinocomfort ng mga section 2, sa room sya ng sec.2. tpos ung ibang 4-1 pumasok sa 4-2 at nilabas nya ung pain nya and all his burden that carlo brought to him eversince. CUT. ngulat nlng ako nung sinabi ni toffs sa amin na gusto nyang magpalipat ng section. gusto nyang section 2. section 2 tlga gusto nya e. :(
 
pero bigla kong naisip, ako rin, gusto kong mging section 2. mahal ko na ang 4-2 kse khit di ko cla nkakasama araw-araw. hndi ko man cla nkakausap kse di ko cla ksama s room at katabi cla ng room nmin, mabait cla sken. i always try to mingle wid dem. ayus nman! labs ko ang 4-2! mabait din nman ang 4-1 kaso nag-iba na cla. i feel like i don't know dem. 4 years of being wid dem is not enough, parang mas lalao ko na clang hndi kilala.
 
kim kimmy_dcsaid that carefree ang 4-2. mdaling pkisamahan. msarap ksma. anyway, wla na akong magagawa. malapit na grad. un nlng bunubuhay ng loob ko. khit nararamdaman kong love ako ng 4-1, prang may kulang e. o cguro, gusto ko na tlga magcollege at mag-iba ng env't.
 
and now, i'm thinking twice. am i exerting effort for nothing? gagawin ko pa ba ung sorpresa? aattend pa ba ako sa prom? parang ayoko na. if i don't attend the prom, would they still even care? mgiging msaya pa kaya mga days ko wid them? maybe, nag-iba na rin ako. i admit. pero ewan ko. nagababago ako dhil nagbabago rin kayo. :(
 
i thought you're my family. i guess i was wrong. :(
 
 i miss my friends outside school so much!.
 *hugs*
 
going back won't feel the same,
becca

parañaque day ngayon! so, wla kming pasok.. wlang pasok but we still have so many things to do.. in fact, we have a lot of projects, assignments, practice to be done today.

SUNDAY- my tita, mom and i stroll around manila to find my special day for our prom night. since, i want a dress that is black in color, it's very tiring pero very touching lahat ng nangyari. i already have one.. ipopost ko sna ung pic pero it'll be a surprise.. hay... feb 24, prom night and sad to say, di ata tlga ako mkkapunta sa dane's birthday celebration.. i miss the team! advance happy birthday kay james, ate cherry, at dane! :)

MONDAY- i forgot, ang dami ko pa plng hndi nggawang assignment.. i don't have time na kse bcoz we hav classes every saturday tpos andami pang assignment.. musta nman?!? ayun, ntural day. namiss ko si sir espino ah.. haha.. nung nagkasalubong kme.
AKO: sir, bat wla kayo knna?(i'm wid paola)
SIR: e wla kayo e. (sabay tawa) namis kta.
AKO:ay ako rin sir namis kta..
PAOLA: sir ako namis nio?
SIR: ay hndi, sya lang..
tumawa nlng kme.. favorite student tlga ako nun.. preho kmeng maloko e..

we also had our band rehearsals in jam2one studio. we waited an hour outside bcoz may banda pang nagppraktis.. ayun, we(my band.. includes:: jheric, dominic, genelle, ako) rehearsed a very special song, my heart by paramore nd the kajuko song that we composed.. and we're with the band "pila", classmates ko rin, friends ko.. (includes: paolo, carlo, genelle and noah) ayun.. after ng rehearsals, JAMMINg to the max kme.. kung ano-anong kanta pero msaya.. yey! sa wakas, may pic na ako wid genelle, paolo, carlo, doms na dalawa dalawa lng kme.. pictures wid bandista.. haha.. i'll be posting it here soon.. but i wasn't able to take a pic of noah nd i..(bkit ba??)

 

ayun, umalis rin kme ng studio ng 8:30 pm, sumakay agad so noah khit hndi pa sya nakakapagpaalam sa ibang ksma nmin. tpos ayun, lahat kme pasucat ung way. ayun, jhric unang bumaba, then carlo, genelle, doms tpos kmi nlng dalawa ni joepao ntira, tpos ako na bumaba.. unforunately, ang haba ng pila sa terminal ng trike.. so, nagpasundo ako kay kuya tpos konting roadtrip tpos stop over sa tapsihan.. ayun, uwi na..

twas a very tiring but a very special day prin..
 
pupunta ako pasay later.. kila myka.. ayun.. papaturo ako ng steps sa ballroom..aarrrggghhh. kitakits!

God bless!!

i miss you all!!

*hugs*



pag-ibig di matatapos,
-becca







happy birthday...


nga pla.. regards kay reg... *hugs* belated po ito.. sensya..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY REG! regireg